Waiting

Many of us are impatient. We are too impatient to rest when we are sick, waiting to get better. Too impatient when we are hungry for the food to arrive. Too impatient to find the right person, fall in love, buy a house, get fit, have a baby, get promoted, buy our dream cars, whatever it is that we think will make us feel happy.

The curious thing about waiting is that it often carries with it a promise of satisfaction in the future. But when we finally get what we were dying to "get" for so long it ends up being ordinary.

That satisfaction, in reality does not exist in the future, for every moment is fluctuating and changing and so are we. Our desires, attention and emotions shift from moment to moment so to spend our lives waiting for something is to give up our lives to a false promise of eternal gratification while in reality, it is only momentary.

Yet at the same time, waiting sometimes is an act of surrender and complete trust. Sometimes we struggle, try and resist too much. When we surrender and patiently allow, our desires are granted the moment we are  ripe enough to receive it. 

"The blocking mind tries to assure satisfaction. Most thought is based on satisfaction of desires. therefore much thought has at its roots a dissatisfaction of what is. Wanting is the urge for the next moment to contain what this moment does not. When there's wanting in the mind, that moment feels incomplete. Wanting is seeking elsewhere, completeness is being right here." Gradual Awakening by Stephen Lavine