We have all developed some pretty good idea about who we think we are. Those ideas are very much tightly tangled around our belief systems, ethics and preferences. And very often, those ideas do not necessarily consistently reflect our reality.
We sometimes think we are "worse" or "better" than we actually are. We imagine ourselves to be what we are not, this is why we are often shocked when we see ourselves in videos or hear our voice recorded.
But it doesn't end there. What often shocks us is our disappointment in how we behave when that behaviour does not align with what we think ourselves to be.
But the truth is that even if we are kind, sensible, smart, hardworking, loving, calm and compassionate people, we cannot possibly be all those things always. We all have an inner child, an inner teenager, an inner evil twin sister that sometimes takes over.
Sometimes, regardless of how hard we have tried to be less angry, less judgemental, less hurtful and less stressed we behave otherwise. When we behave against all the things we have worked so hard on being we either judge and hate ourselves for it, or judge and hate others as we perceive them as the reason why we behaved so badly.
We have to cut ourselves some slack, we have to say "my inner child is scared", "my inner teenager is acting up", "my evil twin sister is throwing a tantrum" and to continuously love those aspects of ourselves until they change. It is okay to realise that we are all more than one person and that if we manage to be kind most of the time, then we are doing well for ourselves.
Weam is the founder of Namaste. She had started a very deep and intense spiritual journey at a young age having refused to continue to suffer with the common challenges of her generation: depression, anxiety and being lost. She insisted that there must be more to life than the constant rat race she was in